I just need to vent. I don’t want to post to stupid facebook because that’s stupid. Twitter is lame with it’s 140 character limit or whatever it is. Instagram is just pictures and when I do textcutie or textagram I end up deleting them anyways. I don’t even remember who follows me on here anyways, and I doubt anyone ever reads what I type anyways. I just need an outlet today..
I’m pretty sure my period is right around the corner. If that’s tmi for you, then sorry, whatever. But geez. It hits me so hard, it’s really unbearable with the emotional and mental stress it brings me (and my family). I literally become a raging monster you could only see in your nightmares. I hate it :( Today is my weepy day. I’m like a big emo baby, I just want to sleep. I can’t though, of course. I have three kids aka monkeys to watch and keep alive. I love my kids. Don’t get it twisted. I just need my alone time, and I very very rarely get it. I need a day off. I’ve been saying that for so, so long! It’s not coming to me very soon, I don’t think…
I just want to cry and curl up in a ball in my bed with the blankets tucked under my feet and pulled over my head. It will relieve some of the estrogen that tries to kill everyone every month. BIG SIGH.
I could type for days and days, when I get in the mood for it. I love expressing myself through writing. Well, typing actually, because my hand doesnt move as fast as my mind does; I can’t get the words out on paper fast enough. Thankfully, I type fairly fast.
This week just feels like it sucked, basically. It’s the little things, ha. They just keep adding up and just being over emotional, whether it be sad, angry, any negative emotion really, it just gets to me. I was SO frustrated earlier. Everyone in real life and on facebook and on instagram was just annoying the crap out of me. And as of this moment right now, I’m feeling a lot better after typing all this. I really am. I should do this more often.
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I told myself 2013 was going to be different, that things were going to change this year… Nothings changed, as much as I like to lie to myself (and others) saying that is has…..I’m so tired.. so.tired of this abuse. For a while I was so numb.to it. I didnt cry over.the names I was called. I didn’t cry over the fake love I.was being.shown. I just fought back with anger. Then, something.changed and I.got my hopes up thinking I could.actually be happy with who I was with. That it could actually work out. But no. Not with an emotionally draining negative.excuse for a person. Not someone who breaks you down every chance they get (every time they speak to you). Not someone who calls you the ugliest names in the book then turns around and says they love.you…. I just want free. These mental and emotional chains are tearing.me.down and I don’t know.how much longer I.can do this. I’m so broken…
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two year olds..
My ‘livi will be 2 1/2 next month and she’s DEFINITELY TWO. I swear it feels like my lungs are going to collapse and my hearts about to just die and fall to my stomach, with the way she acts sometimes. I literally get a pain in my chest like I’m having a heart attack! She stresses me out lol, and it’s JUST me, of course, because momma is the one you always have to cry to. Everyone (steve, my mom, my MIL..) tells me that they (the terror sisters) aren’t bad, or as bad, when I’M NOT THERE, which I know is true because when they think I’m gone they’re semi-good. And I’m like…WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE SUCH MENTAL TORMENT???!!!??!? lol raaaaaaaaaaant.
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Somebody’s a genius [video]
l m a o
Yes.
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"The world is not full of Attractive People and Unattractive People. It’s full of people who are attractive to some and not to others. I hear from trolls all the time who complain that they don’t want to be “forced” to find nasty, ugly fat women attractive-which utterly baffles me, since the last thing I want to do is encourage fat-hating dicks to date fat women. You don’t find fat people attractive? Fabulous. Don’t date them. I will find a way to pick myself up and move on without your love. But to assume your lack of sexual interest in fat chicks must be universal-or that the mere existence of self-confident fat people having healthy relationships somehow “forces” you to find fat attractive-is the height of fucking narcissism."
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Wish someone would grow me a pair, so I could keep this state of mind and get this pos out of my life, like I’ve wanted for 5 years.
